Connection - a Key Theme for Depression
This painting shows part of the healing process and the topics of the Healing Session I went through when I healed myself from the root cause of severe Depression that I had been struggleing with for almost 20 years of my life. I painted it right after the session in October 2017. Since this session I have not have another episode of severe Depression or taking any antidepressants.
A big part of the whole process was to restore CONNECTION!! From my experience and what I observed within myself, within my clients and just through general observation, for many people who suffer from Depression CONNECTION is a KEY THEME! Out of various reasons there is often a lack (or a perceived lack) of connection to the planet in general, towards other people and - most importantly - a lack of connection to ourselves, our core, our purpose, our true sense of self. Instead of connection a depressed person feels alone, lonely, often ungrounded, uprooted, floating lost in space and a deep feeling of despair and as if nothing makes sense. And it is true: life cannot make sense, if there is no connection.
I personally have had a big issue with developing a sense of belonging and connection on many different levels of my life. I really struggled with feeling a sense of true belonging, I have had difficulties with finding a place to settle, finding my Soul Family and so on. Starting in 2019, when I started my Nomad Life (which was never my intention, btw), I have been on an intense healing journey around this topic, and slowly slowly, bit by bit haven been coming HOME TO MYSELF and finding HOME within myself. The life conditions I am currently living in would have made me freak out completely ten years ago. I would have been going through panic and anxiety attacks all day long, on the floor crying and really loosing my sh***. Through the way I was living (and pushed to live like, by the Universe) within the last years, I have become so incredibly resilient, I myself am in AWE when I think about it. I don’t know anyone close to me who lives like this or who would be able to cope with living in that kind of way. However, I am not saying that it is necessarily a healthy state of living - YET! I still haven’t completely restored a healthy sense of belonging. On it, though ;)
Just recently I moved through another layer of healing regarding this specific topic and I had a lot of realizations about why it has been specifically hard for me to settle down. But more on that another time.
There are many reasons for developing Depression and I will have a Masterclass soon where I will share with you in detail what those reasons can be.
Having lost the connection to your truth and your true authentic being is one big reason. And often connected to this is losing a sense of purpose. Purpose however is what DRIVES us. Without a sense of purpose and connection, we don’t have a reason to live anymore. However, not having a sense of purpose and connection, does not mean that it’s not there. You just lost sight of it. So you have to get back on the right track again. And I won’t lie: The road can be long and winding, but even with only one foot on the right track again, connection is starting to be restored. Hope will at one point develop into TRUST and that is when Life get’s really really good again.
